You read other people's stories and you are supposed to get excited. Sometimes I do.
This lady, Nicole Weeks, lost 16 pounds of fat and gained 11 pounds of muscle in her first 12 week challenge with Body-for-Life. In two challenges she went from a size 14 to a size 4. WOWWEE. I am so thrilled for her. She looks good! Go check out her site. You'll see what I mean.
Sometimes when I hear/read success stories like this, it's a downer. I'm on my fourth challenge. How come I am not in a size 4? (What's a size 4 look like? That's amazing. Well, I've seen 0s on my sister-in-law, but I thought they just jumped from 0 to 8 or something.)
I should not be depressed. I look so much better than I did in the first place. I've gone from a size 18 to a size 9. That's freaking wonderful.
Plus, I started at a lot worse place, physically, than she did. (If you read her essays, you find out she started the challenge right after walking out of a physically abusive relationship. I was in a lot better place than that psychologically when I started.)
I've looked at her stuff and, according to her statistics, she started out weighing 144. I weighed 50 pounds more than that. I'm getting closer to where she started!
I think what is really frustrating to me is that she gained so much muscle. Several trainers have told me that my body will go to muscle a lot better than most people's. But I'm sitting here, 40 weeks into this, with maybe a gain of 4 pounds of muscle. The most my scale ever said was 8. Now it's showing a 3 pound gain, over the whole 40 weeks. I am so frustrated.
I looked at the weights I've been lifting. My lower body exercise weights have increased dramatically since I started. (Well, actually, they've gone from 5 pounds at the heaviest to 70 at the heaviest.) My lower body exercise weights are up, too, from 10 to 40. What's wrong with that? Why am I not gaining?
I don't have muscle you can see like that. And I haven't gained muscle like she did. I would love to. She looks good. She's right, skinny ought to be out compared to having muscles you can see.