One Month to Live: Day 15

Jesus risked rejection.

Right now in your life do you have a relationship in which the communication is really breaking down?

Yes, with my mother. That, however, is not a result of a broken relationship, but an artifact of her mental instability. It is very hard to speak with someone who screams at the top of her lungs that everyone is out to get her, you included. Right now she is on medication which keeps her calmer, really too calm, but if my dad wants to take care of her at home, she needs to be quiescent.

Do you consider yourself a good listener? Why or why not?

Over the years many people have spoken to me about the private things in their lives that others either could not or would not share. I think this indicates that I am a good listener.

I try to be a good listener, even when I do not actually understand the topic of discussion. I like for people to feel they can talk to me, so I work hard at listening.

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know” (Jeremiah 33:3).

I love that verse. God gave me a genuine, active curiousity. This verse speaks to my heart in a unique way. God, please tell me the mighty and hidden things I do not know, especially those I wish to know and those you wish me to know.

Of the people on your speed dial list, whom do you consider most important? How often do you call them as compared to the others on your list?

I call my friends fairly often. –Also, I used to try to write them an email every Monday and say how I was doing. Maybe I should go back to that.
I call my family fairly often.
I do not call R’s family often enough to let them know we care. Now that Pappa is gone, I need to especially call Grama. R’s not good at phone calls, so I guess I need to do that for him and for them.

Try a twenty-four hour media fast.

I have done that before, but I don’t know how I feel about it right now. I will have to pray about that.