Mid-life Crisis

I quit teaching full-time to follow my husband to a place he could get a job and I ended up staying home to teach our sons full-time.

Last year our youngest son began doing all his work as a dual credit student at the local community college.

I always assumed I would go back to full-time teaching when the boys left home.

That does not seem to be the case.

This past semester my husband agreed to move to another city, if I was offered a job. I wasn’t. The job is available again and I have been asked to apply. However, now my husband is happy with his work and school situation. Now he doesn’t want to go.

So I am not sure what to do now. I might be able to get a different kind of job and leave teaching. It won’t leave me the free time I have had (or potentially free time) but it would be full-time and give me a sense of belonging.

We’ve been here 10 years. In that time I’ve had a few friends that I met for lunch and talk, maybe three. However, no one really close. The closest of the three is moving to California.

I don’t feel like a total failure.

Despite the fact that my sons say they would never homeschool their children, I believe I did the best I could for them. I think it was the right choice, at least at the beginning. My sons know I love them.

I did eventually finish my PhD and, despite the fact that I haven’t been hired full-time, I have gotten three good compliments from bosses on my teaching.

So I don’t really know what to do.

I don’t want to teach all over town if it is not going to lead to a ft position. I don’t like to drive that much!

I need to pray about this and make some decisions. It’s a bit late to quit for the fall, unless I have a full-time job, but I need to not go into spring on autopilot.