Deep dark depression, excessive misery…

If you ever saw Hee Haw, you would know that song. And you would know that the tune is sprightly and upbeat. Not exactly a gloomy tune.

But that’s kind of how I feel tonight. I’m a little (lot) frustrated. I’ve received corroboration that my lack of presentations and publications put the kabosh on my being hired this last year at the college I applied to. And I am trying to remedy that. I have five presentations that have been accepted and I am working on a publication that I hope will be accepted as well. One of the five is a national conference. The others are local. But one must start somewhere.

I spent a lot of time homeschooling and I think that was the right thing to do. Someone asked me if I felt underemployed at the conference I went to in October, and I said no, that I felt grateful to be able to homeschool. And that is true. But I am also frustrated that teaching, which is what I want to do and what I do well, is not valued as much as presentations… or perhaps as much as a perky personality.